Hello
I’m a 28 year old female, I found out I was adopted when I was about 15 years old , just after my adoptive father pleaded on his death bed with my adoptive mother to tell me the truth before he dies, unfortunately he died on the 11 November 1989. I eventually was told months after my father died under bad circumstances i.e. having an argument with my mother, she blamed me for my fathers death. My adoptive mother made me swear to her not to ever try and look for my biological parents while she is still alive.

My adoptive mother could never bear any children of her own, I think after 6 miscarriages she became very bitter, I was one of the 3 she adopted. The other 2 children ran away from home when they were teenagers, I eventually left home (ran away too) when I was about 19-20 years old.

Its very difficult explaining how I genuinely really feel, I think the missing link and gap has just made me immune to the heartsore feeling I’m experiencing. It has become worse now that I’ve got a baby, the questions and curiosity has just increased over the years not to mention every year on mothers day, birthdays & any other family holiday tends to just depress me.

I’ve tried on more than one occasion to try and follow leads and consulted the family welfare but people don’t want to talk and get involved, I think it is so selfish, am I being wrong? All what I want is maybe just a photo to find inner peace within myself, no commitment , no obligation, no harassment NOTHING AT ALL, only a photo.